Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Management Managing

Attended a meeting today (supposed to be a rep) with the heavy weights (if you know what I mean). My eyes wide opened! Sigh...so that's how they do things. Can't say more but throughout the whole thing, I just felt (and still feel) troubled, disappointed and worried.

So much for the organised organisation. We are headed toward the 'want speed, no thorough thought' Mis-Organisation. Good luck.

31 Mar 09 (9.15pm)

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Cruise Booked!

Yippie, finally booked my weekend cruise for April! The window rooms are all fully booked and I have no choice but to go for stateroom (sounds great but it just meant no windows, just 3 walls and 1 door).

3 pax for $1277 (at a supposedly reduced price for Citibank credit card holders). Still find it expensive for more than $400 for a weekend cruise, but....there are no better alternatives if we really wanna go on a short trip. Sets sail at 9pm on Friday and back to Singapore at 10am on Sunday. Well, that's the best we can do for the limited time we can afford for now.

Before we booked our trip, I brought hubby to the famous porridge stall at Chinatown.




Isn't that darkie a piece of art?
28 Mar 2009 (9.09pm)

Xiaohei - my previous correspondences with Town Council (TC)

20 Dec 08 (Me to TC):
Dear Sir/MadamI am a resident of XXX.I understand there had been complaints about the presence of a cat along ourcorridors and staff of the town council had on a few occasions came to check.The cat, fondly known as Chantek by residents who know and love her, has been the 'pet of the block' (at least to the longer-staying residents) from at least 7 to 8 years ago.If the town council has indeed acted on the complaints by some residents who donot like the presence of the cat, through no fault of hers, would you also kindly update us (residents who adore Chantek) what action has been takenagainst her?We want to set our mind at ease that she is not being harmed in any way.Much appreciated.

20 Dec 08 (TC to me):
Dear XXX,
Thank you for writing to the <TC>. Please be rest assured that your concerns have been forwarded to the respective department, and they will reply to you within 7 working days. We thank you for sharing your feedback with us. Have a great weekend ahead !

22 Dec 08 (me to TC):

Dear XXX,Many thanks for the reply. I will be waiting for the response to my earlier email. I wish to add on that my only request to you is to update us the whereabouts of Chantek so that we can visit her at our convenience. I certainly do not wanther to be put to slp unnecessarily (that is my only fear and concern).I had been feeling very stressed and unsettled since her disappearance lastFriday and seek your understanding that our attachment to the cat went back avery long way close to a decade ago. It will be a tragedy if her decision toventure up the block more than half a year ago has caused her harm in any way,because she cannot be tolerated.This festive season has been spoilt thoroughly but I certainly hope it can be more or less compensated by knowing that Chantek is fine and herwhereabouts...as the next best Christmas gift.It will be very disheartening if we live in a society where 'the people who hate get rewarded, while the people who love get punished'.I am eagerly waiting for some good news please.

22 Dec 08 (TC to me):
Dear XXX,
We thank you for your e-mail regarding chantek.
Please be assured that Chantek is not being put to sleep.
Could we have your contact number so that we could update you with regards to Chantek.
Kindly contact me at XXX or XXX if you have any further enquires.
Thank you and have a nice day.

22 Dec 08 (me to TC):
Dear XXX,Thanks a lot for the assurance. You may contact me at XXX.

23 Dec 08 (me to TC):
Dear XXX,Tried calling you but you were not available. Perhaps you can contact me at XXX when you are back.

29 Dec 08 (me to TC):
Dear XXX,Many thanks for sharing with me that Chantek has been released at Blk XXX. We have all been searching for her around that area a few times a day since Christmas eve but there has been no sign of her.There could be a number of reasons why she can't be found. We have asked a few people over there but they have not seen her.I am not sure under what circumstances was she released (was she frightened orterrorized by the other existing cats or ill, etc) that could lead her to disappear. We are very worried for her and also heartache and pain. We certainly do miss her a lot.I am writing to you again because I would not like to miss any sources to find her again. May I appeal for your kind help to contact me anytime if you do come to know ofher whereabouts (be it through residents complain there she is up in their block again, or whichever sources you happen to come across)?

30 Dec 08 (TC to me):
Dear XXX,
Thank you for your e-mail dated on 29th December 2008.
As spoken to you on 30 December 2008 , we will keep a lookout for Chantek whereabouts and keep you informed of the status.
Kindly contact me at XXX or XXX if you have any further enquires.

17 Jan 09 (me to TC):
Hi XXX, still trying to locate Chantek.Can I check with you if it was town council staff who had taken Chantek or was another 'agency' tasked to do the job? Were you present when she was taken and released at Blk XXX?Would be great if you can let me have some clues for me to continue to trace.

29 Mar 2009 (11.09am)

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Friday, March 27, 2009

Thanks, Prof Tan!

It's just a simple curry puff. But the gesture was just too overwhelming. I was very touched and grateful.

Yesterday, while walking up to my office, I met an academic staff whom I have not met for a couple of months (partly because she was away on sabbatical leave to UK for a while). She asked how I was doing and other stuff. Told her very stress which she understood. Then she looked at me and said:"Cannot lah, you are too thin, need to eat more. Take this." She offered this curry puff she was holding on one hand. I told her I had biscuits in the office. She insisted and persisted that I take it. Felt it wasn't too polite to keep rejecting, and she really sounded serious and sincere. So I accepted it and took it up to office.

As usual, once into the dreaded door, I would start to be bog down till I miss my breakfast. By late morning, I was very hungry and hey presto, the curry puff appeared. I started eating it and I was so grateful for it.

Thanks a lot, Prof Tan for being so kind and approachable, as always. :) I hope I hadn't 'deprived' you of your breakfast yesterday.

27 Mar 2009 (11.19pm)

Cruise is going to be real soon

Come tomorrow, I will go to the travel agent to book for my weekend cruise! I wonder why cruises are so ex nowadays but that's the best time-out I can have for now (weekend cruise to nowhere). Hubby got no leave, I have leave but with the craziness at work, I can't leave in peace. Sigh...Why care ah?

Anyway, I have decided to do the booking tomorrow! By hook or by crook. I will be a MAO if I don't get this done tomorrow!

A little not shiok it's just for the weekend, but well, that's the best I can do for now. Anyone wanna join?

Pssst, anyone wanna go HK for a short trip too? Thinking of bringing dad there leh. :)

27 Mar 2009 (11.06pm)

Turning Bad?

Is it age, or is it extreme frustration that make me become very grouchy and naggy of late? They all happen at work. Sometimes, I need to consciously remind myself to back off or keep cool. Am very worried that I may just lose it one day and start doing things I may regret later, eg screaming at people, slamming phones on people (I had done that once).

But then, I had wished for myself to become a bad person. Mmmm, am I along that path now?

27 Mar 2009 (10.51pm)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Be happy?

Be happy? Be happy? Be happy? Be happy? Be happy? Be happy? Be happy?

Yah, I am very happy. My life makes me happy. My family makes me happy. My job makes me very happy. Everything around me makes me happy.

26 Mar 2009 (9.10pm)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Mood on downward trend again

After a week's break, the jinx is back to terrorise my mind and heart.

24 Mar 2009 (10.14pm)

Ok, ok, it's all my fault!

It's my fault for being unreasonable
It's my fault for expecting auto attention
It's my fault for letting my faulty brain and wayward heart to do the thinking
It's my fault for sulking
It's my fault for delaying things
It's my fault for stressing up myself unnecessarily
It's my fault for saying unkind words
It's all my fault for (whatever I have forgotten to mention here)
It's all my fault, for whatever that happens at work and at home
It's all my fault. I accept it.

In summary, I am faulty. And disposable.

24 Mar 2009 (10.12pm)

Monday, March 23, 2009

A day of relaxation

First of all, my laptop has been sent for repair and I will be laptopless for about 1.5 weeks. Hopefully I can still post during this period. This post is done using hubby's laptop while he is at work (and I am not!). Here comes...

I am on leave today. Decided to take a day off because some contractor is visiting our unit to do some routine checks on the pipe. Further reinforced by the thought that something is wrong with my laptop' LCD panel and have to send to for repair before warranty expires. Thirdly, I was dead tired and sick of work that I thought with all the above reasons, I better take a day off to take care of my well-being too, while doing those errands.

Couldn't help but snapped a couple (more than a couple indeed) of pictures to represent and remember the day. These were random shots and they might not be of the best positions or quality but I just wanted to snap away the moments of the relative relieve and relaxation compared to the usual hustle and bustle of the working days.

I really hope such days can happen at least 1 every 2 weeks (not so greedy as to wish for it to happen everyday, though I will embrace it if it ever happens).


The morning started at the same time as usual. Took the train with hubby to have breakfast with him. Holding that laptop in the carrying case was a big burden but who cares as long as I was in the happy no-working mood! Even the view looks sweeter than usual. How nice if....




Tried to be the first customer at Acer Service Centre, International Business Park at 8.45am (it's opening hour) but I was about the 10th when I reached at about 8.50am. My turn at about 9.35pm. Admitted my laptop and carried the case back.

Couldn't help but admire the scenery on my way to catch a bus to Jurong East Interchange. Ahhh....empty fields are great therapies. I was trying to catch a glimpse of the egrets (or 'crane' that I called) but they weren't there when I headed back.


Where I started walking from. Anyway, that building is Creative Technology. Acer is behind it.


Finally saw the egrets. One of them later flew across the road where I came from. In my eagerness, I crossed the road back to try to take another closer picture of the 'flown-away' one, at the expense of a few missed buses. But who cares. The buses were frequent, and I was relaxing, remember?

This was the one. It stood still for quite a while. I decided not to wait and thus ran back opposite to wait for my bus. Enough of egrets for the morning. Happy to be this close to them anyway.


Off-peak hour interchange! The feeling was really, really different while walking. I can't express that in words but I swear I could feel myself smiling away. How much we need such breaks and therapies.


The Jurong East MRT station is a mad house every morning. I am always closing my eyes sleeping when I go to work and I could hear and feel the craziness. So while there, I saw a very peaceful station. Phew, I continued to smile.

Look!! The train at Jurong East. Can you see this while going to work in the peak hours? No chance. My heart was bursting out laughing! When the train started to move off, I told myself, "Stop reading and playing on your handphone. Look at the views around you. The peace you don't get to enjoy every morning. Just enjoy it now!" So I just looked out of the windows as the train moved till I reached my destination.


Snapshots along the way. Whatever that is different from the usual mornings. Just look at the cars and pedestrians!


Ahhhh....couldn't believe I am going home! And what's more, an eagle was flying above the train while taking this picture. Wasn't fast enough to capture so I decided to just watch it. Flying and gliding.


Closer to home!


The place where we try to spot egrets every morning. No disappointment as I had seen enough at Jurong East. Hahahaha..

Back home. Stil couldn't believe I am getting home! Wow, I love that feeling!


Walking, Walking in the opposite direction from the dreaded mornings. Ahhhhh...I wanna scream (of joy)!


Just look at the road and the street. Really peaceful...All great except for the very hot weather. Again, who cares as long as I am in a happy mood.


Greeted by the cattie.


Greeted by another cattie.

And the silly gal who was waiting for the lift to get home! WOW...Just loved that feeling.


Muah Chee greeted me!


In no time, I was out again, with dad to lunch. Waiting for feeder to makan at the central.


His pigs' organs soup with yam rice.

And my Kway Chap.

Hey, the mei cai is very good! I am addicted to it since the first time I ate. Really good.

See, Xiao Zhu Zhu? It came running to greet me (will post the clip later). Was back to my own place after lunch to wait for the whoever that was coming to check on the pipes.

The school next to my block made my leave very real! The kids are in school!! I am at home!!!! WOW WEE.......
Gosh, I think I am very hungry and thirsty for such breaks. I was fully absorbed today. Can we have this more frequently?
23 Mar 2009 (5.37pm)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

3-hour time-out

Hubby was out this morning. Had wanted to zzzzzzzz late after breakfast but subconsciously, my mind was slowly drifting to work again and I could hear my heart beating hard. I started to feel that uncomfortable (stress) feeling again. Couldn't sleep and decided to head out at 11am.

Had a few places in mind but couldn't really decide where to go or where to start, even while on the feeder bus to the MRT station. Finally decided to go to the library at Bras Basah, then to Chinatown to grab some Star Cruise brochures.

Library - headed to the finance section and chose a book on stock investment (original wanted to check out bookstores for one, but decided against it as it's a waste of $ and space and I may not like it. So a safe bet would be to borrow first.

Chinatown - went to Five Stars Travel and ASA at People's Park Centre and got the brochures. Well, the price is the same. Also got some snacks home - egg tarts, char siew soh, yam ball (from the once famous Toh Kee).

Home sweet home at about 3pm.

22 Mar 2009 (4.47pm)

Saturday, March 21, 2009

MM Lee describes Singapore’s future at NUSS lecture

Channel NewsAsia - Saturday, March 21

SINGAPORE: In 25 years’ time, Singapore will be a country that reflects the state of the major powers and its Asian neighbours.

While the look and colour of its society might change, its major resource — talent — will remain a predominant issue, said Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew on Friday.

He was speaking to an audience of about 500 students, alumni and invited guests at a National University of Singapore Society (NUSS) lecture on the topic of "Singapore and Singaporeans — Quarter Century From Now".

The evening started with Mr Lee officially opening the Alumni Complex at the university — the largest graduate club in the country.

During the dialogue, he said Singapore’s future might have a different ethnic and demographic composition as many immigrants become new citizens and permanent residents.
But the main ethnic groups would still be the Chinese, Malays and Indians. The population would also be more educated.

Mr Lee said: "We are caught in a bind — we’ve got to decide this is our country, our society and we must remain the majority. Yes, we will take immigrants; yes, we will take talented people, but we must be the majority.

"Otherwise, they will change us if they are the majority. So I think 25 years from now, Singapore will be more cosmopolitan because we’ve got many people from China, India, Malaysia and from the region. We have European children doing National Service."

The minister mentor also painted "optimistic and pessimistic scenarios" of where the world and ASEAN would be. But he said the more likely outcome would be "somewhere in between".

On top of that, Mr Lee spoke about where Singapore’s economy could go from here.

"I cannot tell you what’s going to happen. I can say the optimistic scenario is in two or three years, we’re out of this (crisis). At the worst, four, five or six years. As the IMF said, Hong Kong, Singapore and Taiwan are going to be hit. Why? Because we are export dependent.

"I’ve got economists saying you’ve got to change your system. Wall Street Journal has said, ’Oh, this won’t work, consume yourself’. Four million people to consume and keep an industry that supplies the world with top—end goods — it’s rubbish," he said.

On the political front, when asked what would happen to the country if there was a major shift of power, Mr Lee said he was not concerned as to which political party was in charge.

He said: "If you get capable people forming the next government, people who know what they have to do to make Singapore work, then I’m not worried. I’m not worried whether it’s PAP or SDP or whatever government.

"But I am worried about the quality of people who get into power. Integrity (is) crucial, (and) ability, experience and a willingness to do what is necessary for the people, and not for yourself."
— CNA/so/ls


Rainbow during rain?

I thought rainbow appears only after a rain, but this evening after dinner, I saw the rainbow while it was still drizzling. You mean it's possible? I haven't really notice that. Anyway, it's nice.



Look! The different shades of colours in the sky were very very beautiful too. And in fact, the sky on my left and my right were of different colours and the pics below were the dividing point. Nice hor?



21 Mar 2009 (9.18pm)

What makes one climb up the ladder?

I am getting more and more convinced that ELOQUENCE plays a much bigger role than competency.

Muah Chee sharpening his teeth

Seldom got a change to get a good pic or video clip of Muah Chee. Here's one I have just taken while he was enjoying his time gnawing on the hardie.

21 Mar 2009 (8.18pm)

Friday, March 20, 2009

Cruise Cruise Where are you?

Am planning to go for a cruise. A weekend kind (Fri to Sun) seems to be the only possibility now. Can I just plan and go in peace? Was contemplating going this month but because of work, I kept delaying and am very tired every day to source. I think I better do something and have a little getaway before I start going crazy again.

God bless my weak soul!

20 Mar 2009 (9.08pm)

When can I have my break?

Thank goodness I am in a saner mood this week. I hope this carries on. I am very scared of that extremely frustrated, irritated, stressed, worried state of mind. But people can't stop making continuous demands everyday. I really feel like getting some people off my back.

In any case, I am really tired.

I wonder why I don't feel as excited about being on leave as before. Though it seems great I can skip work that day and do whatever that is planned, I can't help but worrying about what will happen that day and how many emails (and action items) will my inbox receive that I have to clear when I get back. Even taking a day of leave does not spare me from such worries. I have a problem, I think.

Win lor, work also stress, taking leave also stress. How?

20 Mar 2009 (9.05pm)

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Waste of time!

Further to my earlier post on work, I really cannot believe I had to continue (meaning this is a sequel to the past few day's mad rush) to work on this shit today, spending my last 3 hours at work rushing and running here and there like a crazy woman. I really wonder if I should be the one doing this when the rest simply say, "the things are with her". Because of the process (which really sucks), documents need to be passed around to get endorsements, verifications, etc (due to kiasi-ism spirit). When the whole wide world says I have the documents, well, I don't. I have scouted my desk, ask the possible people whom I might have left with, but no. Can kill me, but I don't have it! Why need to pass here and there in the first place? Just the thought of this makes me boil and mad!

Come on, 3 hours (and that's just for this afternoon) of my time! I could have done other more important and urgent things. I even have to stop doing the tasks my boss wants me to do, just for this stupid shit clearing. It's really sickening!

If this is not going to be settled, I promise I will flare!

*&^*#%&*_)^*&(*^@!!!!!!!!!

19 Mar 2009 (9.27pm)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Lunch with my Profs

Had lunch with my two Profs together with another colleague yesterday. They are very sweet.

We had served on their committee and are passing the baton to two of my new colleagues. So they had suggested on an appreciation lunch. We had a nice buffet lunch at Orchard Hotel. It was really nice to be able to talk to them over on a casual basis. In fact they are very nice people. I am not saying that because of the lunch, but my encounter with them over the past years. Very understanding folks.

Thankful to be able to know there are still very nice and normal beings in the world of academics in the medical fraternity.

Thanks Prof Bay and Prof Sim. And thanks Steph for the support. :)

18 Mar 2009 (9.00pm)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

The "Passing the shit" game at work

That's life at work.

Someone dumps you a load of shit, expects you to clean it, and worse still, wants you to clear it FAST! You will be the point of focus if you can't rush to clean the shit. You will be the focus of condemnation if you can't clean it in time. You will be sentenced to death if you can't settle it by deadline.

But remember.....it's shit in the first place. I can't use my hand. I need a fine needle to slowly 'thread my way' to see if I can dig out some 'gold'. If I can, congrats to you. If I can't, I can't! You can kill me.

And I really wonder why people must throw the shits to me to clear. Just because they are worried about dirtying their hands? And I have to be the scapegoat to be hanged if the shit spills, or the 'terracotta warriors' to be buried with Emperor Qin?

17 Mar 2009 (9.43pm)

"What Career is Most Suitable for Your Personality?"

I took the What Career is Most Suitable for Your Personality? quiz on Facebook and the result for me is...
An Artist!

The description says: Your love for the arts and your outstanding creativity obviously states that your future career is a musician, artist, writer, actor or in other words a world-famous star! Everyone, nationally and internationally, will enjoy your artistic abilities and also pay millions of dollars for it. Not only is this an amazing career, but its also tons of fun!!

My god...I strongly believe this is really true. But I had not pursued in that area. I guess all this while I have been following the wrong thing. Can I still make it? Can I still craft out something for whatever that is remaining of my life?

Hubby!! See? I really wasn't spouting rubbish when I told you I am a 'handy' person and one of my interests is photography! Trust me, I am not saying to try to escape from my current predicament!

17 Mar 2009 (9.11pm)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Is our destiny cast in stone?

Why would we bother to have our fortune told? Why do we bother to ask about our life destiny from the shrinks or whatever medium?

If they are about good things, fine and good. But what if the outcome is not what you have expected, or worse, absolutely bad? Are we going to dwell on it and let it affect our lives?

What if you are told that you are going to be down on your luck and whatever money you earn, you will lose? Are you going to stop earning? Or are you going to find better ways to save? Or are you going to keep worrying and be despondent about it without doing something (cos you think since it's your destiny, nothing you do will help)?

Year after year, I have been told that I shouldn't go into investment. But should I let that stop me from doing it? If my life destiny says I can only get money from my main job, then I might as well die, because I know jolly well I can't continue to survive just on that all my life (provided government don't charge me bills, don't tax me, don't need me to continue to pay for house, pay for insurance, pay for TV license, property tax, etc). I call those our fixed costs (or expenses). That means, even if you starve yourself, those fixed costs are sure to suck you dry, anyway.

But, if I were to take the advice seriously, then am I not casting out all the opportunities?

It's quite sickening. The best is....don't need to know the 'supposed' life destiny. Can it really tell me my life in just a piece of paper? What about all the 'what-ifs' questions? Most importantly, even if it is really accurate, can I really change anything? If not, why cause myself more pain than life already is?

Can't I just follow my heart and my brain (if mine still works)?

16 Mar 2009 (8.56pm)

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Ice Cream Indulgence

Mood was absolutely down for the past (at least) two to three weeks. Somehow, today I felt my mood a little lighter, so I decided to reward and motivate myself with a good ice-cream. Dragged hubby (though he was very tired) to Swensen to satisfy my craving.

Had a merri-mint and I loved the choc fudge very very much! Hubby's sticky chewy is my all-time favourite, but I decided to go for mint today.

Enjoyed my ice-cream tremendously. I hope I will continue with this lightened mood after today. Sunday's always a curse.

14 Mar 2009 (8.38pm)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Life as a cat

Every morning, as I walk along an estate to the office, I would see a handful of cats lying around. So far, the max I see each time is 6. There is one that will always been seen in the carpark, either under a car, or on the car! Some will lie under the stone tables, some on the stone chairs, some just resting along the covered walkways and watch the world past by.

It is very nice watching them as I visualise myself being one of them, and able to rest and relax and laze around under the sun, especially when my journey to the office is a tough one, every morning.

What would life be if I were to be a cat?

Sometimes I wish I can become a cat. But let me qualify that it would only be good if I can be a 'good life' cat, ie a cat that is well-loved, well-taken care of, and well-pampered by the surrounding people.

I can do whatever I want to, go wherever and I wish, be playful whenever I feel like it, sleep whatever amount I want to, play cutie to whoever I like. Isn't that nice....?

An alternative would be birds - can fly high, have great view. But birds don't have as much interaction with humans (on the other hand, may be good). They have lots of space to fly. The danger is when you are the target of the bird-hunters!

I still wish I can be a cat.

And to end it off - where is my Chantek Xiaohei? I miss her so very much still.

11 Mar 2009 (9.22pm)

Met the knight

Just like you and I. No armour, no horns, no horse.

11 Mar 2009 (8.04pm)

Monday, March 9, 2009

Tired Tired

First, Monday blues.
Second, whole lot of people coming for this and that.
Third, attending a briefing after lunch.
Fourth, got a request for info (Urgent!)
Fifth, went for a meeting that stretches from 4 to 7pm.
Amongst other luan qi ba zao things. Kill me, kill me!

That's only the first day. I am trying to be positive. But I can be sure it won't last.

9 Mar 2009 (9.44pm)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Men's Partners

Not sure if it's reasonable to say this applies to the majority of men.

I think -

For single men, many are passionately co-habitating with their beloved partners, but it's really common....

For married men, though they stay with their spouses, they boldly bring along their beloved partners to the same house and treat them like their legally married first wives....

Who are they? ....TV and Computers!

8 Mar 2009 (8.57pm)

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Showing Love and Concerns

Everyone of us expresses our feelings of love and concerns very differently. Some may appear indifferent towards things happening around them but in actual fact, they are still following very closely.

Some people express their feelings opening - like hugging, patting, direct words

Some are more subtle. They do things for you without stating openly their intentions. But a sensitive recipient will know the kind intention.

I am not referring to just the love and concerns in the context of a boy-girl relationship, but in the wider context, eg family, friends, relatives, etc....

Be more observant and sensitive, and you will probably know. :)

7 Mar 2009 (10.58pm)

Cuties at NYDC @ Bugis Junction

No, no...we didn't go for dessert at NYDC. After lunching at Sakae Sushi, we walked past NYDC and saw these. Very cute and amusing, so I snapped pics to cheer myself.


Bluey (is he Cookie Monster?): What the hell? We've been sitting here for ages and no one's serving us anything? Not even the menu!

Elmo: I am waiting for the baby chair...how am I suppose to eat this way? And...why are people snapping pics of us without asking for permission?


Donkey Eeyore: So what if you have a baby chair? I've got 3 but...there is no place for my food. And there's a silly girl taking pic of my pathetic state.

7 Mar 2009 (10.15pm)

Lunch at Sakae

We were at Queen's Street this morning and thought of popping over to Bugis Junction to look for lunch. Finally decided to settle for lunch at Sakae Sushi. I wanted to try something different today, and was pretty excited to see a 20% discount for all salmon items!




Hubby's Ebi Handroll and my Salmon Skin Handroll. We shared the chawanmushi, the normal one. Haven't got the desire to try to other flavours.


The Tempura Ramen came in a huge, huge, and heavy bowl. Got a scare. But then, it was only half-filled. Phew. See the next photo.

This was the original portion, before starting hor.

I went for the Dragon Roll (fried prawn sushi topped with avocado). I hate the taste of avocado,actually, but it's ok when eaten with other things or drink as juice. And with the 20% discount on all salmon items, how can I not order something that is 'salmoney'! So here's my salmon sashimi which I finished myself (hubby doesn't eat sashimi).

Close-up of my dragon roll. Very filling wor.

Our 'luan qi ba zao' things. :p
7 Mar 2009 (9.59pm)

Friday, March 6, 2009

Mum's Anniversary

Today is Mum's 16th anniversary. How time flies...Still missing her.

I hope you are happy wherever you are now. :) Love you always.

6 Mar 2009 (11.06pm)

Bad Job Market


6 Mar 2009 (11.03pm)


Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Meeting a knight

Will be meeting a knight. Wonder if he wears a shining armour, grows horns or carries a sword. Mmmmm.....

4 Mar 2009 (8.31pm)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Why?

Why do I force myself to smile at work while crumbling at home? Isn't home where I should be smiling and enjoying and resting? Why do I keep doing the opposite things? Why do I have to 'cripple' myself this way? Why can't I just heck care and be a happy person like the rest? Why do I always try to 'torture' myself to death? Why am I always so dumb? Why do I always feel so helpless and useless? Why do I not know?

Ok, ok, I think it's really time to go to sleep.

3 Mar 2009 (9.35pm)

I cried on the train today

The emotions and the frustrations were building up to the point I couldn't hold it any longer. The tension was simply too great. Tears started rolling down my eyes. I had to force myself to control to prevent more tears from rolling down. I wanted so much to turn back, get home and bury myself in my blanket. But I fought very hard with myself to carry on with the journey and get on with the day.

I returned home alive tonight again.

Am I breaking up and down? I am but I don't know whether it is necessary. I can't control it anyway.

3 Mar 2009 (9.12pm)

Monday, March 2, 2009

Last wisdom tooth is causing problem

The last time I went to the dentist, she said that my last wisdom tooth had started to decay, and that I need to remove it soon to prevent it from affecting the gum and the tooth in front of it.

Sigh, where do I find the time to go remove?

But I better think about it seriously cos I can start feeling the tooth hurting and the gum also. When I bite something, I feel the pain too. I don't want to cause unnecessary damage to the good tooth and the my gum!!!

2 Mar 2009 (9.36pm)

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Ways to vent your frustrations and stress

I thought I am feeling very repressed (not sure if this is the correct term to describe). It suddenly dawned on me that one of the problems I have now is that I have lots of irritations, frustrations and especially stresses that I am unable to 'let off' for lots of reasons. It gets cooped up inside me so much so that I feel like my chest is going to explode anytime. But each time it gets pressed further down. It's an accumulation.

I feel like screaming but there are no places for me to shout.
I try to share it but I get it thrown back into my face.
I cry but I can't do it too openly.
I look depress but I am mistaken to be angry with people.
I lose temper but I am told to restraint.
I look tired and I am told to go to sleep.
I try to get into the rain but am being told off.

Must I always still be so considerate to people when I am about to die from my problems?

Humans are damn contradictory.

Sometimes they tell you not to keep things to yourself cos it's unhealthy. But when you blare your heart, you get criticised. In the end, you only have to keep becoming a clown to make people around you happy.

What the heck!

1 Mar 2009 (9.29pm)

Hidden Message

I think I really cannot change myself. The problem is here to stay with me and give me lots of agony from time to time. These are painful experiences. I hope I can cope and survive with it.

1 Mar 2009 (9.04pm)

Somebody Jumped

Think someone jumped off the flat near our place. Just saw it a while ago when I was on way home. Police cordoned off area and the body was covered. No details though.

Sigh.....

1 Mar 2009 (9.02pm)

歌之旅的歌

这是一首超过十年前的歌,当我在新瑶小组‘歌之旅’的时候。这是礼莲写的歌,记得我们也在外演唱这首歌。今天我试着从脑袋瓜把歌词给记出来,希望没记错。而歌名是叫做‘陪葬’。

在这个温柔的夜里有你有风有星
而如果你愿意可否告诉我可曾对我动过情
然后轻轻听我为你唱一支最古老的歌曲
在这已写上绝言的夏夜里
啊在你来不及看清我心的情
所有该忘该收藏的将随我埋葬在土里
啊当我终于闭上了眼睛
在我的心目中你将是我最深最美最不舍得回忆


1 Mar 2009 (3.20pm)