今日感言

我怕。。。我忘记珍惜。

My slogan for the day

Forget about #2

It takes two hands two clap.

It is good after going round and round, we had the same goal. But the problem, the level of commitment, excitement, anxiety, wanting is so different and the different is so vast!

You will know the emotional exhaustion when one is caught in this situation.

Each time the prb comes and we try to address it, we go into the same cycle.

I am ending this cycle. So I am declaring, I am withdrawing from this and giving up the chase (if anyone cares though).

I am stopping all the restrictions from eating, drinking....whatever!

Game over, officially!

6.19pm

Ailing relationship?

Something is not very right, but we are hanging in there.

There are more 'strained' moments, at least in my view. There are more frustrated moments. And there are definitely more silent moments.

Are we heading toward the cooling off of a relationship? Is our communication thoroughly breaking down? Seems to be, though I hope not.

I wonder what's so addictive about a damn phone that one cannot let go, and what's so big deal that the other cant just forget about.

At least from my perspective, I really have enough of such an addiction. I am seeing more of the other party settlinf down at the comfort of the phond and see nothing else happening at the peripherals.

I gave one or two clear indications and tonnes of indirect hints. But the through is, either they are all not clear enough to get into someone's head, or the addiction has become too ingrained. 

When there were two of us, I could just give a head shake and get on with doing things. Now with three of us, I occasionally have the urge to break some glasses to get my message across.

It is clearly affecting our relationship, again, AT LEAST fron my view. The other party is likely to still be hallucinating under the great influence of technological addiction.

What else can I do? I want to just manage things on my own, live as though I am managing things alone. Maybe by doing this, I will feel less bothered by the other party's indifferent attitude. He can continue to live in his own world while I live in mine, and my little one. This is definitely a bad choice for a relationship but I dont know what else to do.

Both of us are extremely poor communicators - one waits for the other to open mouth, while the other keeps things down.

Will this be my life for the rest of my remaining life? Or will we cut this short, either by making things better, or in the worse case, throwing in our towels?

I am just so tired, and frustrated, and bogged.

Good night.

10.24pm

This is a danger sign

Pissed!

Sigh I have nothing better else to say then...