今日感言

我怕。。。我忘记珍惜。

My slogan for the day

Forget about #2

It takes two hands two clap.

It is good after going round and round, we had the same goal. But the problem, the level of commitment, excitement, anxiety, wanting is so different and the different is so vast!

You will know the emotional exhaustion when one is caught in this situation.

Each time the prb comes and we try to address it, we go into the same cycle.

I am ending this cycle. So I am declaring, I am withdrawing from this and giving up the chase (if anyone cares though).

I am stopping all the restrictions from eating, drinking....whatever!

Game over, officially!

6.19pm

Ailing relationship?

Something is not very right, but we are hanging in there.

There are more 'strained' moments, at least in my view. There are more frustrated moments. And there are definitely more silent moments.

Are we heading toward the cooling off of a relationship? Is our communication thoroughly breaking down? Seems to be, though I hope not.

I wonder what's so addictive about a damn phone that one cannot let go, and what's so big deal that the other cant just forget about.

At least from my perspective, I really have enough of such an addiction. I am seeing more of the other party settlinf down at the comfort of the phond and see nothing else happening at the peripherals.

I gave one or two clear indications and tonnes of indirect hints. But the through is, either they are all not clear enough to get into someone's head, or the addiction has become too ingrained. 

When there were two of us, I could just give a head shake and get on with doing things. Now with three of us, I occasionally have the urge to break some glasses to get my message across.

It is clearly affecting our relationship, again, AT LEAST fron my view. The other party is likely to still be hallucinating under the great influence of technological addiction.

What else can I do? I want to just manage things on my own, live as though I am managing things alone. Maybe by doing this, I will feel less bothered by the other party's indifferent attitude. He can continue to live in his own world while I live in mine, and my little one. This is definitely a bad choice for a relationship but I dont know what else to do.

Both of us are extremely poor communicators - one waits for the other to open mouth, while the other keeps things down.

Will this be my life for the rest of my remaining life? Or will we cut this short, either by making things better, or in the worse case, throwing in our towels?

I am just so tired, and frustrated, and bogged.

Good night.

10.24pm

This is a danger sign

Pissed!

Sigh I have nothing better else to say then...

Part 1 of wardrobe clearing

Have been wanting to organise En's wardrobe for a super long time but just didnt get to it. Today I had a day to rest at home but couldnt sleep, so I decided to start with a little reorganising.

Packed out lots of her little items - swap, rompers, bibs, mittens, booties, caps, pants which all are too small liao. Those that are clearly old, i have to throw them away. Those that are pretty decent, i have kept them aside for anyone with a little baby and can use them.

Clearing these stuff made me recall the time En was just so small. More than 2 years have passed and she has grown up to be a big little girl now. A tinge of sadness having to throw those old clothings. :(

But then.....I need the space!

PCF Sports Day at ITE Central

Today's the One Community Walk day organised by the People's Association.

It seemed then that all the childcare centres and kindergartens under PCF were also participants, directly or indirectly.

En's school gave us some tickets for rides and games. So we brought En this morning for a different exposure. 

The little gal was in love with the Thomas and friends train ride. She had 3 rides! One of which was with her good friend in school, Chloe. The gals met at the train ride venue and ended up moving about together - breakfast with Chloe's parents and walking home together.

Little gal was dead beat when she reached home and it didnt take her long to zzzxx right after her milk at 12pm!! And slept till 10 minute to 4pm.

Thought it was a nice morning to spent with little gal though we thought the event was a little wasted in that the q was very long for most popular rides and games, so we really weren't in a good mood to queue for all. Moreover we did not have coupons for some of the items, like the balloons. 

But anyhow, glad for the opportunity to exposure little gal to something different.

24 Aug 14

9.29pm

每日的问题

是不是所有父亲都认为母亲永远是那个by default看着孩子的人？

当母亲在场，父亲消失。当母亲不在场，父亲会有超过百分之五十的时间也不在场。当母亲发脾气时，父亲没办法得出现。

真是太恼人了！

Those were the days

A poly friend, Eileen sent us this pic via watsapp some months back. It was one of our stay at Changi Village chalet, if I remember correctly.

Well the four of us were 'stick togethers' during our 2nd and 3rd year of our poly life.

Those days were fun to me though there were 'pains' during project times.

I cant believe this was about 20 years ago! How time flies when you least expect it. Have we changed much? Other than marital status, I guess there aren't many significant differences.

How many more twenty years do we habe and can we look back?

Maomie is back!

There was only one miserable post in 2013 and i wonder what had kept me off my blog for that long.

Well lots of things, esp with a little one. Everyday is simply rushing from places to places, getting numerous things done one after another, in addition to work.

2013 had been a dreadful year to begin with, in relation to work. Left one place to another, but with lots of ill feeling (will share more when I am able to write more). 

Joined a new department and programme on 1 Feb 2014 where i am still at now. Time is more flexible for me to handle home and work, though travel can be a little painful sometimes.

Well, i do hope to revive this blog and continue from where i had left off, to rattle about this and that.

Are you ready?? 

18 Aug 14

10.59pm