Last day at Star Learners tomorrow

Baby En is going to her current infant care centre (Star Learners) for a last day tomorrow. She has been here since mid March and it was the best choice out of no choice when I started going to work after maternity. Our AMK IFCs were full and we were placed on waitlist.

Thankfully we were offered a place at the IFC nearest to our home last month and we have serve a month's notice to withdraw from this school.

This evening, we bought a little cake and card to show our appreciation to her caregivers. We will miss them! Shall present this to them tomorrow morning! :)

Thank you, teachers for taking care of Baby En En.

A single burden?

Not talking about single parent but rather a single child.

When I was a younger kid and even young adult, people around kept commenting how pampered I must have been since I am the only child in the family. I could have what I wanted, didn't have to share toys (and other things) and have the 'whole world' to myself. Some asked if I felt lonely.

Well, yes, as a single child, I was (and probably still am) the focus of the family. Attention was on me. Though I was not excessively pampered, I was lucky to have most things I wanted to have and own stuff. And whether I felt lonely, no, I was brought up the way I was and it was peace that I enjoyed.

As I grew older, the fact of life slowly set in. Now people ask if I feel stressed and burden having to take care of my parents (now only dad, as mum passed on in 1993) all alone without any other siblings sharing the burden, ie in terms of finance, time and other care. I did not feel the pressure until the baby came along. I suddenly feel that I cannot split myself into two and give 2 equal focus and equal quality of care that I used to give dad. I feel terribly guilty and upset and depress, esp with lots of things happening these weeks. With lots of attention needed by the little baby, I feel I am 'losing touch' with dad. I dont want that to happen. Can I do something about it?? This really bothers me a great deal. And it's making me mentally very strained.

On the other hand, I thought of my gal. If she is going to be the only child we are going to have, am I also being fair to her? Will she be in the same situation as I am now when she is older and we (her parents) get older? Am I causing her great burden to bring her into this world?

As I look at En, and see my situation now, I couldnt help but cry. I don't want her to bear such a big burden if I can help it.

These two weeks have been tough (rough's the more appropriate word) and I hope this will ease off soon. I am already on the verge of cracking and probably have, today.

Perfect description on my life now

- source from Mum's Business FB page.

Thought of the day

There may be a thousand things happening at home at a time, but the man only sees one or two things he wants to see or wants to do. He is oblivious to the other thousand things even though they happen RIGHT UNDER HIS NOSE!

Dad has caught the flu and is running a fever

I think Baby En's cough and flu is potent. It has hit all of us - first hubby, then dad and now me. I thought dad's share was over as he was coughing two days ago. But this evening he was not well and was suddenly down with flu. I asked him to check his temp and it was 39.1C!

As I need to take care of Baby En, hubby brought him to SGH A&E and they are still there. They are keeping watch on his heart and now waiting for blood test and xray result, according to hubby.

I hope he gets well soon. :(

Thought of the day

A mummy does what is needed to do whatever happens.

A daddy does when he is in the mood to do and leave it when he is tired.

Is it so?

Thought of the day

Women can do at least 3 things with 2 hands;

Men can do only 2 things with 2 hands.

Agree?

En En is sick, so is the daddy

Baby En had mild cough last week and we thought we would monitor it. It got more frequent on Monday after she returned from IFC. And she had mucus in her nose which we thought was also hindering her milk intake. We decided to bring her to KKH at about 8+pm. Gosh, we waited for about 2 hours and decided to leave without seeing a doctor cos it was simply crowded and there were still more than 50 patients ahead of us.

So we brought her to SBCC the next morning. Dr prescribed ventolin on nebulizer for 2 days and wanted to see her again this morning. Well, that means I have to be away from work too cos she had to stay away from IFC for these few days on dr advise.

This morning's follow up went ok. Lungs seemed ok and dr said could stop nebulizer but continued to prescribe ventolin on oral together one other medicine. Dr advised me to watch her until weekend to make sure she fully recovers before bringing her back to IFC. So that means I will have to skip work again tomorrow. (My boss is going to squeeze me dead!) But well, my daughter's more important now.

Poor En is still coughing with phlegm and running nose. She has hoarse voice. When she screamed and cried this afternoon (for whatever reason) in her hoarse voice, I cried with her. It was such a pain.

I hope Baby En recovers soon.

PS: Hubby is also down with flu. Not sure if he caught it from En. Worse thing is he is having his exam tomorrow. All the best!